Thoughts on the world

Been a few years since I posted here but I have not been gone, just on a journey. I have completed a Masters Degree in Information Systems. I have started another degree (Bachelor of Arts) studying psychology and philosophy and have learned quite a bit more. I am trying to see if there is more wisdom out there surrounding life, death, ethics, laws of nature and who and what we are.

So far there are glimpses but it seems the rationalists are pretty irrational when it comes to studying meta-anything.

Philosophers run aground in deep waters and Psychologist fear their science might turn out to be frippery, so they shy away from anything non-deterministic.

So where are the truly wise? They must be around somewhere. Hello?

For a long time philosophers have argued over the idea of determinism and free will.

The hard deterministic view proposes that all in the universe is a result of a chain of cause and effect that stretches back to the very beginning of the first second of the big bang. This view proposes that matter and energy is affected only by the basic laws of physics and because these laws are unchangeable, everything that has happened is a result of cause and effect. This idea would also mean that the universe’s future is very certainly predictable. That means that everything we do, say, feel and experience in our lives was set from the very beginning of time, that we have as much say over our actions as we do over the movement of the sun. See

The other option is that there is a soul that sits outside of the deterministic (physical) universe. This soul is acausal and has a separate existence. This is more along my lines of thinking. That said, however, the soul does not exist in isolation and it cannot make a body disobey the laws of physics (too much). If there was no determinism to people’s behaviours then how could prescience exist? I myself have had dreams that I have related to a third person because they seemed so odd. For example, I dreamed that I was working with my brother in IT in a building with yellow ochre and dark blue walls. Some years after the dream I lived through the scene and experienced a deja vu feeling. The words spoken where the same and everything was the same except one person in the dream was missing. They did not interact or play a role but they were notably absent from reality. What this showed to me was that certain events seem to be ‘fated’ though they may have some variance (eg the missing person).

I think we have free will but that there appears to be a stream of reality that has a kind of inertia. In other words, most of the time we behave as per our natures and make predictable decisions. Occasionally we do something important and different which changes the course of reality in a small way. It is almost like there is a soul riding the universe itself that determines how and where most things go. We humans have the power to alter the flow a little and exercise our free will. Often doing so is difficult and testing, sometimes it seems like we are working against a current and everything is crashing into us like we are in the wrong place.

That is my thought.


Like the paths between the sephiroths in the qabalah I sat down and wondered if there were similar relationships between the chakras. I am probably not original in this but I for one haven’t heard of this before. Please note that I have puposefully left out the information spcific to the chakras. There is plenty of good sources available for those that are working in a specific chakra space. This is my take on synthesising the paths between:

Red to Orange

Sexuality is tied to survival deep within us. The drive to mate, procreate and find a partner is deeply rooted in both sexuality and survival. The deep inner red-orange force affects everything in our lives when young. It forms the basic drive to grow up and become adults. This path is about raw basic drives. The initial feeling of compatibility and attraction between two partners. The chemical and hormal factors that makes our breathes quicken and our hearts race and fills our being with anticipation and excitment and that feeling of being ‘in love’. This path does not require us to think for ourselves, in fact we don’t, we just feel. Nature’s silent will rules us on this path.

Orange to Yellow

Mixing sexuality and power together adds the idea of will to the basic raw force of sexuality. Here we learn to control out instincts or let them control us. This path teaches us a lot about power over those we love sexually. This is where we are challenged in ourselves. Where pure sexual drive is polluted by feelings of power or powerlessness. People on this path are forced to look at themselves in very basic terms. Are you dominant or are you submissive? Do you use sex to control your partner or does it control you? Whatever the answer sexual power is about you, not about anyone else.

Yellow to Green

Where the previous path has been about urges and power over self, this path is where another comes to prominence. It is where one learns to give their power to another and yet take it back for themselves. Children linked to their mother are linked through this path. Deep personal love and love of family and protecting your family come from here. The idea of true love is conceived and the understanding that sex and survival are not the root of love is found. This path is the place where people who have left the ‘honeymoon phase’ find the energy to go on. They are still intertwined but they have had to face that their partner is not perfect and have had to accept the reality of life spent with them. This path is the ground which tests whether a relationship can survive, whether each party can live with the power relationship that has been formed. 

Green to Sky Blue

The path from Love to Communication is where we begin to realise that Love is the binding force of the universe. We sense that love goes beyond just the feelings we have for those close to us but it exists in some amount in all things around us. It is when this is happening to us that we start to speak more gentley about others. People on this path find themselves ready to move on from the hurts of their past and ready to forgive and release those who have wronged them. This path is the path of the philanthropist, the person who starts to love humanity and sees the world from a different perspective. People on this path will often be involved in charities and helping professions. They look for the best in others while accepting the faults they find. 

Sky blue to Indigo

On the path from communication to intuition we find those who feel connected. They are the ones that not only understand that the universe is love, but can feel the currents around them in day to day life. Survival, Sexuality, power, emotional love and networking with others are all important but those on this path tend to do these things on autopilot. People working on the lower paths mistake these people as being detached and cool, as they can be focussed on other things. Those living on this path are few and find the physical world hard and demanding. I have seen people on their deathbeds become otherworldly in the final phases. They seem to disconnect with the day to day needs an focus on the essential truths of life. They want people to know how much they love them and how beautiful and how valuable the are. Their sense of self disolves in caring for others. 

Indigo to Violet

People living on this path could only be called wise. Intuition to spirituality is the path where you join your full self. The other paths all lead upwards but this one ends in spraying out and down across all of the other paths and chakras. A person on this paths not only knows themselves and their place in this world and the next, but they know yours. These people are quiet and confident and have a certain otherworldliness about them. Their words are soft and never spoken with base emotions. If you listen great wisdom and insight is available to you, if you don’t, you will remember them later and understand.

I saw this article after it was posted by a friend in Facebook. . Given that web sites come and go I thought I would pinch the content as a keep sake here.


Top five regrets of the dying

A nurse has recorded the most common regrets of the dying, and among the top ones is ‘I wish I hadn’t worked so hard’. What would your biggest regret be if this was your last day of life?, Wednesday 1 February 2012 11.49 GMT

The top five regrets of the dying

A palliative nurse has recorded the top five regrets of the dying. Photograph: Montgomery Martin/Alamy

There was no mention of more sex or bungee jumps. A palliative nurse who has counselled the dying in their last days has revealed the most common regrets we have at the end of our lives. And among the top, from men in particular, is ‘I wish I hadn’t worked so hard’.

Bronnie Ware is an Australian nurse who spent several years working in palliative care, caring for patients in the last 12 weeks of their lives. She recorded their dying epiphanies in a blog called Inspiration and Chai, which gathered so much attention that she put her observations into a book called The Top Five Regrets of the Dying.

Ware writes of the phenomenal clarity of vision that people gain at the end of their lives, and how we might learn from their wisdom. “When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently,” she says, “common themes surfaced again and again.”

Here are the top five regrets of the dying, as witnessed by Ware:

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

“This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.”

2. I wish I hadn’t worked so hard.

“This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret, but as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.”

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.

“Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.”

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

“Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.”

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

“This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content, when deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.”


Sorry, only fully clothed beings without wings are allowed past this point.

No such thing as a Demon?

While I agree to a certain extent, that the overinflated judeo-christian idea of angels and demons is not so black and white in the afterlife, to say there are no demons goes counter to my experiences.

So, what is a demon? In my view a demon is any non-corporeal entity that chooses to call itself a demon. There are those that refuse to re-incarnate in the normal way but search around looking for ways into those already incarnated would be demons. They certainly do roam around. Some would call them malicious entities, and would be correct. There are those that dominate the recently dead and try to enslave them in their own mutually created ‘hell’, and there are those that are attracted to areas of violence, conflict and hate in our world and feed off that energy.

On the bright side, demons are really like the goblin king from labyrith. Their hidden secret is that they really have no power over us, only the power that we give them. They live by feeding off the fear (mainly), anger, hatred, guilt etc. Places where these emotions occur frequently become heavy and stifling and can create fear in sensitive people even when there are other people around. In all circumstances, knowing that there is nothing to fear will protect you.

Having been involved in a number of ‘house cleansings’ where people have claimed that there is a demon or malicious spirit in their homes, I have found that in all cases there is someone fuelling that being. Some people, while scared silly and panicing, love the specialness that being haunted/possessed etc presents to them. There is not much you can do to help people who don’t want to help themselves. Other times there is nothing there specifically except the fear of the person involved. And yet other times, the being is actually a deceased family member trying to get the attention of the living.

All up, I find that the idea of ‘demon’ is a ruse by malicous spirit to get a cheap ticket to easy energy from people. Religious teachings about demons tend to fuel the fear and work to make the ‘demon’s’ job easier.

That’s my view anyway.

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For what it is worth. I do believe that we tend to experience lives serially, one after another, even if they are not in the same order as time passes.

I think of time as a stream flowing from beginning to end. When we die, we rise up, out of the stream and rejoin the spiritual ALL that surrounds the physical realm. In essence, I believe we never actually leave the ALL, only we cast our attention into a body and a life. The spiritual core of our selves is not ruled by matter nor any other part of the physical universe and is never a true part of it.

The point is I think that our spirit grows with each life experience and therefore alters. Growth implies a step by step process of changes which is in itself a kind of ‘time’, at least subjectively. However, being outside the stream of time means that time itself does not exactly exist. OK, This is not completely clear as there appears to be paradox.

So, going from the experiences I have had (either directly or with others), I will explain. I believe that we do live our lives in an order. it is not necessarily the order of physical time. This is not completely boundless nor is it completely bound, so there will be exceptions to the rule. For example, you might live a life in the 800’s and experiences the brutality of a viking raid or series of raids and lose many of your family members and end your like as a slave in Norway. A miserable life which left you feeling the all people are evil and life is hell. Maybe your next life was a gentle one lived on a pacific island in the 1600’s surrounded by a loving family and focussed only love, life and, for you, healing. Next you might have incarnated as a viking in the 1000’s but instead of raining, you, as a noble, decided to settle and protect the north of England from other viking raiders. You see, as the physical universe evolves, so do the lessons we need to learn and experience so in general. While a few hundred years back or forth makes a difference, it is nothing to a few million years. Even a few thousand years can see massive cutural changes. The evolution of mankind on earth is mirroring the evolution of the spirit surrounding this locus. So, if the person living in the 1000’s in this examlpe did a past life regression they could come up with the life from the 1600’s as a ‘future’ life. In actual fact it is a past life in order of experience.

I believe that you may be able to contact a life you haven’t lived yet, but it will be different. It is more of a phychic connection rather than a soul memory. The nature of the connection and the information past would have to be incomplete and possibley may not actually show events that will come to pass. Two principles come into play that I see.

1. If you contact a life you have not yet lived, your interface and experience can only be in terms of your current level of evolution. for example, can an ant truly understand all it is to be a human? Or, would the ant only be able to take in the ant level lessons that a human could share with them?

2. This is the as yet mostly unlived and mostly undetermined future. The life has not been lived yet so the reality surrounding that life has not yet been set. (This is part of my theory about pre-determinism and free-will. How I think both can exist at once.

Is the future pre-determined? Is there any free will? Well I believe that it is a blend of both. The physical future has been partly lived by some souls, and is forming. Just like a little of the past is still forming. I do think that most of the furute is as yet unformed but is like a wave front progressing out ahead of the mainstream of physical reality.

I believe that it is not a co-incidence that life forms are becoming more complex and capable of bearing more complex spirit. As the physical universe evolves (using time as a measure) so do we as souls.

So, comtinuing evolution of the soul, means that while the core you exists in timelessness, it is not unchanging. In fact, all of spirit is moving and changing. Time is the fixed measure of shared change in a physically driven universe. In spirit there is no fixed physical universe to tick the clock. That means that if two people visit the spiritual world at the same time (on earth) for 15 minutes, one may experience it as a minute, the other might experience it as a week. This phenomena is common in people.

Well this is my view of things in any event. 🙂

Last night I had a conversation with my love. It went something like:
ME: “I am an angel!” 
SHE: “Where are your wings?”
ME: “Right here. Can’t you see them?”
SHE: “Aren’t you supposed to be in heaven?”
ME: “Yes…No….that doesn’t mean anything.”
and it went on.

Purdier than a $10 whore...

So what is an angel? Well, I am pretty sure that good and evil are only ideas and not universal laws so an angel isn’t necessarily an agent of good, or bad in the case of ‘fallen’ angels. I think that good and evil are philosophical ideas invented by man and applied to things. 

Angels are different beings. I believe they are made of simpler stuff. Whatever they do, they appreciate beauty in the world. The beauty of physical love and relationships, they beauty of light and shade, of music, of children, smiles and life in all its shapes. In some ways, as people, angels can be a mirror other those around them.

Angels who come into life are still people. They are raised as people and are people in all but certain ways. They live, love, lie, and hurt like everyone else. The difference is that as they individuate and come to know themselves they find peace in letting go of judgement and definitions and live more in the purity or essence of a state or thing.

Angels can find rapture in a childs tear, a sunbeam on a cloud, the feeling of a lovers body, or on a wave of music. People can do all of this too…

Are angels better than humans? Are they more special? These questions I don’t think mean anything. Certainly not to the angel.  Betterment to them is achieved through beauty/love rather than striving, conflict or competition. Angels are not perfect.

Do angels have special powers? I think they can do. Better luck, strangely able to be in the right places at the right times. They don’t live to be the centre of attention but can sometimes be thrust into the limelight.  I guess that their focus on love, universal love, is fairly defining. Like any human, they can manifest this in negative way but it is a theme.

Are angels sent to earth to do a particular work? Yes, I think they are here for a purpose, and to perform certain acts. They are not always aware of those acts and each act may not be of grand signficance at the time, but might just be merely there to plant an idea or offer help or stop a child from running toward a pool etc.

How do you know if you are an angel? Dorren Virtue reckons if you relate to a number of the following you might be one:

  • Feeling different, separate or disconnected from others.
  • Sensitivity to people, chemicals or violence.
  • A strong sense of purpose.
  • Problems with manifesting abundance or relationships.
  • Looking younger than your chronological years.
  • A ringing sound in one ear (which is high level communication that is “unintelligible”).
  • Strangers telling you their problems.

Or this list also one of Doreens:

  • Have a sweet, heart-shaped face.
  • Say “I’m sorry” a lot.
  • “Look” like an angel (whether male or female).
  • Have overeating or weight issues.
  • Gravitate to the helping fields of nursing, teaching, counselors, or healing.
  • Lighten or highlight your hair.
  • Are very trusting of people.
  • Feel guilty saying no to others.
  • Seem to glow with a large aura.
  • Fall in love with someone’s potential and try to coach them to greatness.
  • Tend to have codependent relationships with addicts and alcoholics.
  • Stay in relationships much longer than a normal person might.
  • Love following rules and don’t like them broken.
  • Are really good at giving, but not at receiving.

Intersting list. Heh. Maybe I really am an angel! 😛


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